Saturday, August 04, 2007

Move on, alvin

Hard. So hard.

I'm sentimental by nature. And can't help being so emo at times. Been shoving everything inside.. n i think the dam is gonna break real soon. I dunno how much more i can hold back..

Used to think i can function like a robot. My life has all along been a matter of what i ought to do, over what i want to do. Even when i dun like it.. i just psycho myself. Proved myself wrong this time. Not a robot. Things would be so easy if i were one.

It's useless. I'm flooded by all the thoughts every time i have time to pause.. which is often enough. I'm beginning to dread the 2 week break after paeds. Just me n my thoughts - bad combination.. the emptiness is searing.

Starting paediatrics on mon. I know time will zoom past. I hope it does.

posted by Alvin @ 9:15 PM |