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Hols here

Isn't it ironic.. that it's only the start of the 3 wk break I've been looking forward to, and I'm beginning to worry about what to do to keep myself occupied. It isn't really a much deserved break for me, considering how much I slacked in these 6 wks. I'm still taking things so easy.. guess it would take tutors who are more strict and tougher tests to make me study hard. No kiddin. hah. But it's gonna be one tough journey. Tough becos I feel alone. This ain't a sudden realisation. Ever since I've realised that, I prefer to think of it as a natural progression which can go two ways. With some pple, the more you know them, the more comfortable you become. With others, you can see them every day and still not know what to say to them. It doesn't take moments of awkward silence to signal that. I guess I'm just not discerning enough. Don't mistake me, I don't find it regrettable, neither am I bothered by it. Everybody is different. I just hope I'm doing the correct thing, and when the dust settles, I can look back and say I have done my part. Humans are adaptable creatures aren't we. We learn to make the best out of circumstances. We have no choice but to. And that's the bad part too. We learn to conceal our aversion; we learn to make small talk. It's only with pple whom we trust that we take off this cloak.

I realise I do know a lot about pple. Things which they definitely do not want me to know. Some things by accident, some from someone else. Where's honesty gone. It says a lot about a person, when, I think I know him reasonably well only to discover such 'truths'. I'd rather find out from the person than from someone else. Are you afraid? I know all about you. Hahaha.

It's amazing how I can procrastinate so much. The photos I developed last year are still lying on my table. I bought 2 big albums eons ago but I haven't got down to slotting them inside. Not to mention an online album. Also thought of burning my photos into a CD. Will I ever accomplish anything? Running too. Been trying to get my lazy butt off the couch to run but nothing done. Mebbe a lazy swim. I'm darn lazy. Time seems to be my only motivator. If it's not urgent, I prolly won't bother. Yet when term starts, I would be complaining about not having enough time. If I don't start running, I swear I won't run AHM this year. I'm not gonna kill my legs and risk having flat feet like I did last year. Sheer insanity. And it seems likely I won't start at all. Hah.

GSS is here. I need a few more business shirts and just 1 or 2 street wear. But I'm lazy to go and jostle with the crowd. It certainly makes sense to buy now, and not put it off. Everything's so cheap!

What have I been doing.. bday celebrations - alan, yb, simon, elvin. Elvin's one was teeming with long lost frens. Haha. Shaofeng, gavin tan, gavin tay, louis, zhichao. Movies - Wet dreams, KOH, star wars. Health screening - Was an usher for 1 hour or so, but had sj to chat with lol. Then finally got to do hypocount and so on. Choir concert. Timothy conducted a few songs. First time I tried tennis on thurs. But thanks to my coaches I managed to get the ball across the net haha. Bad osces on fri. They showed us the timetable for the next 3 years on fri. It becomes worse as the years go by; for year 5, they seem to be cramming everything cos there were so many small boxes. How is it possible to remember so many things.

posted by Alvin @ 7:19 PM |